again again again again ////

Still, they smudged everything I took great pains to put forth, in a mere split second. They washed away every single thing I tried to build up, and I scrambled to put them back in place, before they were all gone. But still, they’re gone, they’re gone. Will be okay tomorrow, just to be not okay the next, and it traps me, in a fucking vicious cycle.

I see you smiling, why can’t I smile like you, why can’t I be like you, why can’t I be you? You look so happy, I wanna be you, or you, or you. Just not me. Please? If begging helps, I would have gone on my knees umpteen times.

Hello world, I guess you’re sick of me. Yeah I know, and I’m sorry for hanging around too long. Far too long.