why don't i seem, to do anything right.

I really feel so bad that I was such a piece of wreck yesterday. Sorry for spoiling the fun and everything, I really didn't mean to! I was barely on the dance floor for two minutes before I felt I was a goner and just couldn't dance properly anymore. Thank you for taking care of me and I am so so sorry. :( My body's warped. Why did I feel so lousy on the outside while I was clearly sober and not drunk. But it sucked, it really sucked.

虽然真的真的很辛苦,
也真的真的很痛,
但也许这种痛能让我暂时忘了我所不想感受的痛.
也许, 这也是一种自我惩罚的方法.