her eyes spat tears the taste of rust

Although I always said I wished that an artery inside my head would just burst, that I would just sleep and never wake up the next morning, that I would just suddenly stop breathing, all these are meant for myself, not anybody else. It seems like I go through my life in a circle, it keeps going back to the point where I'll think that I wouldn't mind, really wouldn't mind if I were to leave this world this very instant. I wouldn't have anything really holding me back, because I know, leaving is really easy. And yes, it still holds.

But I'm selfish, and these thoughts are only meant for me, not the people around me. So, please be okay.