hmmm.

I think I hvn't gone to town for really really long, so today when it was time to leave, my eyes were almost closing. And I wanted to sit down at every possible chance in the train but that Friend and Binbin looked at me with disdain. Hahhaaa. Okay okay strong and young people. I'm old already lah okay!

But today I swiped my card until so happy lo, as if I'm so rich. Hahhaa, not really happy lah, but I'm the God of Fortune today, so Friend must be nice to me because I hold the power. Hahahaa. But yes lah, you were nice because you bought food and I just sat there happily waiting for the food to come. But you didn't let me sit when there were empty seats in the bus!! My waist could break lo. Wahh, now I'm looking at your pretty bag and feeling a tinge of sadness when I know I'll have to part with it soon. It's nice lahh! Pretty mature oatmeal color with hot red. Wahhh, I like! So ah, it's going to be the same as your beloved Tissot watch. Whether you'll receive the bag or the plastic bag or the tags depends on the weather and your performance in the days to come. So are you going to be really really nice to us? Hahahaa.

200 Pounds Beauty was really good! It has been so so long since I last watched a movie! The show was so funny I was laughing until I almost died. Haiyo, very unglam but don't need to have xing xiang one lah. Don't know who always say I have no image to upkeep anyway! But it also made me cry lo, it was so touching towards the end lah! My tear glands are still very active now because I activated them after watching Heaven's Tree/Tree of Heaven. It was so so sad and nice lah, I cried until I almost died too.

Okay time to sleep!

Lalalaaa.

Omgomg.
Hahhaaa.
I don't know what to say.
But I'm tired, even though I took a nap!
This is the Binbin's syndrome.

But but, thanks for the mentos. You are so sweet lo.
I love love love love you!
Little things like these, still make me happy. :)

:)

Happy 21st birthday Vonn darling!
Stay happy and funny and pretty always!
We loveeeeeeee you! :))))

arghh.

I must confess, I didn't actually study much yesterday night although I really planned to! I even downed a cup of coffee, but my eyes really couldn't take it anymore so I just went to hide under my bedsheets at 2+am. Wahh, so coffee's useless afterall.

And omgomg, it's raining now and I see lightning and I hear thunder and I'm alone at home. I don't know why but my house is very susceptible to electrical short circuits and when it rains heavily there's always blackouts. I also cannot endure this kind of anticipatory stress. Hahhaaa. If the electricity trips I'll just scream and die lo. Wah lao, why is there something to make my heart drop out everyday one!! Wahh, many many butterflies flying around in my stomach now!

WAHHHH LAOOO! So jinxed lah, the moment I talk about it, then there's a blackout!!! My heart really nearly dropped out and I hurriedly called Binbin but the phone rang and rang for so long! Somemore her mother picked up the phone! And guess what she was doing? Laying out the straw mat so she could take a nap! Wahhh cannot stand. But okay, she is my saviour lo, she talked to me while I tiptoed outside to the dark to use the pole to push the electrical switch back. The rain is still very very big and the thunder is still very very loud. Arghhh. Please don't trip again! My hands are trembling and I shiver until all the goosebumps come out already lahh. I can't type already, need to cover my ears with my hands!!!!

pui!

I have so many so many things to study!!! But before I start studying, I have to complain about Xiaowen. So Min's brother was driving us home, then suddenly don't know why we were talking about people jumping down from our flats. Then I remembered somebody jumped down from mine before and I actually saw the body lahh! Omgomg. I was like telling them to stop talking about it already if not I'll surely die of fear when I take the lift alone later. And when it was nearing my house already, that Xiaowen actually told me not to look up the building later! Shit lo, then I started thinking and imagining things already. I totally hate taking the lift one lah. I'll always imagine there would be a blackout and the lift would stop and I would just die inside. Then I'll also imagine I'll see something which I shouldn't see when the door opens. Arghhh. So I was contemplating between taking the lift and running up the stairs, but the stairs are also like quite scary! You must run up and turn then run up again, what if got people there! Somemore they are building lifts on every storey now, so there's this cover up area and I'll always imagine somebody can open the door and hide inside and jump out and scare me! Omg lo.

In the end I took the lift, and I kept amitabha-ing inside. I thought my heart could drop out lah! Wahh, I really have no courage towards such things I realized. Damn lousy lah. But I also can't help it! I want to try bungee jumping, river rafting and whatever exciting stuff next time because I think they'll be damn fun! I'm not afraid of these but then I'm scared of such superstitious and unrealistic stuff!

I can't imagine what it'll be like when the upgrading of the new lifts are done. There'll surely be these look-through panels on the lift doors? I think I won't be able to take it lah. My heart would threaten to stop everything I take the lift. I'll start imagining that I'll see things again. Hahahaa, I'll just die! Then I'll just take the stairs everyday, although it'll be damn stupid because the lift will stop on every floor! Sighh. Why do I even worry about such things!

But I can take lifts lah. Just as long as I'm not alone, or I'm not being reminded of scary things before taking a lift! So stupid Xiaowen, you just made my day scarier today. Hahaha. You better make it up to me!

Haiyo. Okay okay, time to go back to my books! My eyes are closing. :(

drugged.

Today's paper was shit, the mcqs were damn hard and the examination hall was so hard to get to I almost got lost. But luckily, you could always follow the crowd. And when it rained and everybody was stuck at the foyer of the hall, you really really feel a sense of bliss when you could squeeze yourself into Big Monkey's car and taa daaah, Jurong Point!

But I'm seriously freaking out, looking at the sheer amount of information for Bio Psyc. And what? I only have one and a half days left to pack all the freaking scientific terms into my head. This time, it's really really impossible. Twelve chapters, and I've barely even started. So forgive me, if I look zoned out or get all edgy tomorrow. I don't know how else to cope.

But for now, just pop the pills, down the caffeine and don't forget the chocolates. Maybe things won't get better, but at least they'll be over.

Lately, I look at my posts with disdain. They are all nonsense and rubbish/shameless explicit declarations of affection. Hahahaa. I apologize for them. Whatever ever happened to my intellectual ideas and occasional spews of wisdom (if they ever did exist in the first place). I don't even know how to manipulate words nicely anymore. Hahahaa. Pui. See, that's the most apt word I could think of now! So I shall try to find a balance and have some inexplicable/unfathomable/profound insights sometimes, hopefully. But cannot lehz, nobody tags when I have weird/emo entries and Xiaoshouzhi will say he needs to use a dictionary. I'll be sad one lo.

I had a productive day today because I managed to reach the library at 1030am! Even Binbin was proud of me. Hahaaa. And I was supposed to stay till 9pm lahh, but in the end I left for dinner with the sun you at 6plus. Hahaha. Wah lao. Somemore our dinner from Burger King became Swensens then became Mayim! And didn't we say we wanted to take photos of the food?! Hahhaaa. See lah, everytime the food comes we'll unconsciously just throw them all down into our stomach.

And this sun you always happen to meet me/talk to me the day before my paper. So she'll always make me laugh until I cannot take it. All the information I've packed in my brain all slip out already lahh! The coolie comment lah, and what you told the shop'n'save auntie lah, hahahaa, damn funny lah! Buay tahan. But to think we're doing that lah, we really have nothing better to do!

You see, another redundant entry. My life is so useless nowadays. Hahahaa.