My eyes hurt every single fucking day.

i want to be with you night&day too

Thanks for night&day, and your hugs! Thank you for being small enough so I can hug you so comfortably and lie on your almost non-existent shoulder. Hahaa. Luckily there wasn't any long long bus ride, if not I bet I would have fallen into the trap unknowingly again! But you know I really love you too! You don't even need to speak a word. Just give me a hug and everything, almost, somewhat, will be right again. I didn't know you could be so cathartic too. Hahaa.

And thank you Min for the free ktv. Your brother is the friendliest around already lo. Hahaa. It just doesn't feel very right to sing so late into the late though. I was damn sian diao towards the end already I don't know why. Just wanted to crawl into bed immediately. I still prefer klunch lah. Hahaa.

So just let me put on this facade for the time being, and when it's time, if that time comes, I'll know what to do. You'll see, that I'm trying hard, although it may be fleeting. But words will still have the greatest impact on me, said or unsaid. Every word could lift me to the skies, or tear me down. And if that stinging feeling seems to be coming around, I guess it would be time to bring up the numbing shield, again.


Just follow the path into the night. I would love to leave, without a care. If I could.

Could you, could you chase the blues away too? :(
I don't like to eat anymore. I just don't bother.

You could, you could make it all better. :(

Lesson starts in another hour and I'm so damn bored trying to while away my time in FAL. I think I need to put in more effort in doing my reports because everybody is like using their days and nights to complete it while I just happily try to finish it quickly and then throw it aside. They really do until tian hun di an lahh, and I still can crawl into bed relatively early. But whenever the clock strikes twelve, I really have no choice but to give in. Hahaa.

Isaa baby wants doughnuts but I want my chewy junior. :( I don't have alot alot of interest in doughnuts anymore I don't know why. But of course that doesn't mean I won't eat any if it's in front of me lahh. But I miss chewy junior lehz, and I only had it once. I want the chocolate the oreo the cheese ones. Wahh. Okay next time I'll take mrt down and queue and buy for you all to eat okay! When I feel like it lahh. Hahaa.

I think I'm overly stressed and overly sad, I'm having a horrible breakout on my forehead and it's making me damn damn sad. And my hands are always so itchy fingers, in the end make until so much more worse. They look like those kind will take 10000years to heal one. I don't want to go out and meet anyone anymore. But it's not as if there's a need to also. Sighh.

Can i go home please.

And here I am, on a Wednesday afternoon, sitting in front of my laptop munching on charred doughnuts when I should be in school. I'm trying so hard to assure myself that this choice I've made is justified and I should really be using this time to do all my work and to study all that I can. But it sucks.

Yesterday was HSS's leisure games day and I had funnnn! I even won movie tickets during bingo! Winning is exhilarating because I never seemed to have won in any kind of games based on luck before. But I seriously think I have OCD because I'm just super particular about choosing the numbers for my bingo grids. It's like I must have my Kuytie Pie's 18 in the middle, I must have all the numbers with 4s, 8s, no 3s and such. And I could even win in this way. Hahaha.

It's funny how I could laugh and be crazy if I want to. But sometimes all I really want is to look out of the windows and just watch the world go by. Would you accompany me?

Friend said I hvn't mentioned him in my blog for 100000years already. Hahahaa. Maybe it's because you were more noteworthy last time? Now nothing much to comment on already. Hahaa. Joking lahh, we still love you one friendd.

Thank you for driving us out in the hot blue mazda okay. And I forgot to hug the car again! :( I love Haato lahh, nice ambience damn yummy food. Somemore I can play board games in there. Can I go back there everyday? :( P.S Cafe was super nice too, and I'm lousy because a little margarita could make me flushed and hot. Stupid system, my head likes to throb at every single chance it gets.

Would you call me back, from wherever I am now.

:)

And when nothing seems to go right and the road ahead seems bleak, thankfully there's something which affirms my existence in some way and lets me know that somebody still cares. Thank you for the piggy bank. I don't know who you are and I don't know why you chose to not let me know, but still, it was really really sweet. It did put a smile on my face, amidst all the dreary dreary days I had. And I can start to dong all my onedollarcoins inside and become a onedollarcoin millionaire soon! :)

I think I made my own happiness un-graspable.
It doesn't really matter whether I'm here or not, does it.
But, don't bring me on a rollercoaster ride.