Hohoho.

I think I'm slowly and surely growing old. My energy is sapped so fast whenever I work now, although I do practically nothing at work. But sitting on the chair 9hrs straight is damn tiring, and it's terrible too because isaa baby's sleeping bug will also visit me after breakfast and after lunch. It is so xinku when you keep wanting to doze off but you can't sleep lo. I also can't help crawling into bed damn early every night because my eyes really wouldn't be able to open by 10pm. Shit lo, seems as if I'm reverting back to my secondary school days sleeptime. Really damn lousy. Hahahaa.

Yesterday Friend brought me to eat the Geylang beef hor fun! I was so hungry the whole day yesterday lahh. I felt like 3/4 hungry still after finishing my yupianmeefen and I snacked all the way until I left the office. The beef hor fun was nice and hokkien mee was also one puny plate. But okay lah, it was enough? Hahhaaa. I don't know why there are no photos of the food although Friend brought his camera along. Maybe he was so hungry he couldn't wait and finished up everything before he could take a photo. Hahahaa.

We also had the 126 Eating House's dimsum! I had my favorite fried prawn in beancurd skin, the prawns are a little jumpable. Hahaha. And chee cheong fun and kong ba pao and century egg porridge and homemade barley! The barley is nice lo, drink already got xing fu de gan jue because you can scoop and eat the barley. Very very nice lo.


Friend forced me to blog. Hahahaa.

I was helping my brother to take a photo for his resume, then I don't know why but after zooming in and looking at his face on the screen, I found it damn funny and started laughing uncontrollably. I really laughed until I cannot continue taking his picture. Then he also buay tahan me. Hahahaa. Sometimes my laughing spasms just wouldn't stop. But I think I kind of know where I inherited this from. My mummy was like laughing like crazy over the 7pm show when I didn't find it funny at all! Siao one lahh, our idea of humor really differs by alot. Hahaaa.

I wanted to blog last friday but was seriously too lazy upon reaching home after a 430 day. I just plonked myself on the bed and nua-ed until bedtime. Hahaha. Anyway, I meant to talk about the funny comments isaa baby made. So we were planning to go Sentosa last Saturday. which didn't happen because it rained so we went kbox because it was our wet weather program. Hahaaa. I was telling isaa baby I was happy because I can finally tap my islander card and take the monorail. And she actually asked me she needed to bring ezlink card to tap huh. Hahahaha. I almost laughed until dropped off the chair lah. When I told her nono, must buy the one day pass, she still said must go where buy, and if it's too troublesome she didn't want to go already. The counter is just beside the monorail lehz! Hahhaa so cute lo. She really too long never go Sentosa already. Let's go Cafe Del Mar soon okay, and you better don't jinx the weather this time ahh. If not everytime we try to go, we end up doing our wet weather program how? Hahahaa. I loveeee you lo, you make my otherwise sleepy and boring work days alot less mundane.

I have to confess. Today is a save money and eat in day. But I had to go Vivo to look for a cover for a nano because my brother is giving me his!!!! Omg lo. Happy until can jump around in xingfu-ness. Finally my yellow ipod shuffle can take a rest already. Okay, then I was so so hungry and when I saw Vinco Doughnuts I couldn't help but buy some. Shit one. My beehoon was still in office but when I'm hungry I imagine I can really eat alot alot. So one was for lunch and the other was for tea break. Bloody sinful and I was freaking full. Too greedy man. Not as if the doughnuts damn nice also. But when I'm hungry everything also seem really yummy. Hahaaa.

smashed up lies.

The realization, or rather, the realization of the lack of knowing throws me off the tracks. It's alarming to see how ignorant I've been, or it could well be an intentional avoidance on my part. Either way, it kills me to even think of it. And now, all over again, my old thoughts are pushing forth, and perhaps, this time there'll be no way of stopping it. Would I have preferred otherwise?

I abhor the contradictory impulses. How is it that we are able to see both the good and bad sides simultaneously. Could we choose one, strike a balance and be contented? No, we can't. There's no use bluffing ourselves. The more thinking is done, the more confusion it generates, and the more we can't find ways persuade ourselves anymore. No one ever admits it, but why are we always the ones on the losing end?

I hate to even think for another second, for it pushes me nearer to the edge everytime.

Yeah, I understand how I just ought to be left alone sometimes.

Today I had my favorite yupianmeefen for lunch and once again, the xing fu de gan jue oozes in every single pore within me. Hahahaa. I was so happy I washed down all the soup too. It was really damn damn nice so I was very very contented. But usually, I'm not that easily contented one lahh. Hahhaaa. And Xiaowen commented that if I go out with my Xiaoshouzhi I will be xing fu until can jump down river already right. Hahhahahaa. Funny lahh. Made me laugh like an idiot in the office. But okay, I realized that thinking about Xiaoshouzhi when he's not physically present is like more xing fu lehz. When I do see him, he never seems to believe my words and all the xing fu-ness will like evaporate lo. And I got a missed call from him today. When I called back, he told me he called wrongly lo! :(

Anyway I love my big monkey and his birthday was yesterday! He is so skinny now I really cannot take it. His pants was almost dropping and his eyes are like big big goldfish eyes on his skinny face. Okay, but the main point is that we had dinner at Marche and the feeling of being able to order food without considering so much was really very exciting. Hahhaa. We just ordered and ordered and ate until damn happy. And there was this huge Spanish hotplate that we ordered that was so so much we could faint lah. But I was in charge of eating the jumping prawns and mussels. Hahaa. So so nice lah! And I had a chicken cheese sausage. I knew I had to die die order sausages if not I'll just cry.

Then we went to the Wine Network at Demsey Road. The road in was so secluded and scary lah, but when we neared the place, we could see the lights of the various cafes and bars and it was really very pretty! Too bad PS Cafe was full if not I could have tried the really big chocolate cake that darling monkey said was good. But still, since it was a birthday celebration for an old guy, hahahaa, we had wine plus warm chocolate cake plus warm brownie with ice cream plus tiramisu. Wahhh, I almost died of happiness. But Demsey Road is really a damn nice place. Horribly perfect for chilling out. Hahahaaa. I guess big monkey won't be able to see this, but still, happy happy birthday big monkey! Hope you had a great day with us and please love the presents! Stay hot, cute, funny and handsome always! Love you lots! :))))

And I just came back from a run!!

I think I've found something else which gives me xing fu de gan jue! That, is setting a puzzle piece in place when it's the only one missing with the surrounding pieces already in place. The instant when the piece clicks and fits into place and completes a part of the puzzle inspires in me a sort of exhilaration I cannot describe. But I really suck at puzzles so please do not ask me to make any puzzles next time. I think I took like half an hour to fit one puzzle piece lo. But that was when the whole damn patch was white lahh. But when I got the momentum going, my speed was really not bad one lah, at least got improvement. Hahaha. And the puzzle was like just shades of black grey white lah. So when monkey darling asked me 'Ehh, which part is grey ah?' I almost died laughing on the floor because almost every
piece of puzzle in the box were like greyish lahh. Haiyo, and my colleague was even telling me to separate them according to colors first, so when I saw the puzzle I really couldn't stop laughing lo. Hahhaaa.

Okay, now I have many outlets to obtain my xing fu de gan jue. Hahaaa.

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What do we do, when the world urges us towards something, but all we want is to run in the opposite direction.
Let's keep this life moving, don't look back, forget all, and keep on running.
Where to? If someone could tell me.
The road gets more intricately intertwined the further it goes.
One moment I see how bright things could be, the other I just stop in my tracks and wonder where I am.
Maybe it's the heat, or maybe it's the cold that sends chills to my bones.
But, do I really like what I see?

where's my happiness?

Back from Bangkok and missing it already. People fly to Milan to shop for a day and where do we go? Chatuchak for a day makes me very happy already. Hahhaa. It's nice to board a plane when it's just slightly half full and you could just stretch and even lie down on a whole row of seats if you want to. But I was too shy to do that. Hahaa. And Isaa baby is amazing, she could fall asleep and start dreaming within five seconds lo. I looked out of the window, saw my yummy marshmellow clouds, turned back and she was asleep already. Hahahhaa. But it was a really fun day although the place was really really hot and we were sticky and everything at the end of the day. And I've finally found my definition of happiness! That is drinking my favorite strawberry smoothie at Chatuchak! When the blended strawberry and ice mix hit my throat, there was this really xing fu de gan jue. Hahahaa. And I even washed down two cups at one go. Happiness is so easily within reach actually.

And we were talking about our ideal husband and marriage and everything and when I told Isaa baby I need novelty in my life, she actually thought novelty was ........ !!!! HAHAHAA. Damn funny lahh. I don't want to type it out, very funny lah and totally no link lo! Go ask her if you want to know. Hahhahaa. It made me laugh until I couldn't stand straight lahh. People in the airport must have thought I was crazy. But okay, I loveee you Isaa baby, it's nice to go out with someone when you know you don't have to make conversations consciously. This feeling of being comfortable in each others' presence is really very precious. And you are so funny lo. You need to bring me the next time you know, cuz you need me to tell the taxi uncle Suvarnabhumi airport! Hahahhaa.